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Here I am. Why don't you see me? The real me. Do I have to scream for you to hear that I'm dying inside? I'm trapped here, inside my own head. You see my mask. The one I don't even realize I put up. You never ask me what's wrong. You never ask me about the cutting. It makes me feel like you don't see me. I know you love me. You guys are my best friends. Don't get me wrong, I don't want you guys on top of me all the time, asking if I'm okay. But it would be nice if, just once, when I lie and say I'm great, if you would look me in the eye and say "No your not, tell me the truth"
I am an eccedentesiast, just a big word meaning I fake a smile. I'm one of those few people who, when faking a smile, can make it look real. Too real. If you watch, to see how long it takes for that smile to fade, it was barely even there.
I am an eccedentesiast, just a big word meaning I fake a smile. I'm one of those few people who, when faking a smile, can make it look real. Too real. If you watch, to see how long it takes for that smile to fade, it was barely even there.
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Love and Hate
I love the way I can make my stomach heave.
I love the way I can stop myself from eating.
I love the way I can make mysef bleed.
I love the way I can see my bones after a while.
I love the way I no longer recognize hunger.
I love the way I have scars on my skin.
I love the way my clothes become loose.
I love the way my face begins to thin.
I love the way my skin tears away from the blade.
I love the way I can control it.
I love the way no one notices.
I love the way the evidence is never even suspected.
But I hate who I've become.
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If...
If all the world knew our pain
we might never have suffered
If all our friends helped us through
we might never h
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They Should Have Buried Me.
The night she died, they may as well have buried me with her.
Her grave stands in the middle of their yard, large, a cross.
It lights up at night, with Christmas lights strung across it.
They tell the children fairies are dancing across it, protecting her.
I tell them it's her spirit, lighting up to tell us she's okay.
Even if both are lies, it helps them.
They have made up a mixed version of the two,
saying that she's walking around in ghost form with fairies.
I'm not sure where they got that, but I let them have it.
I stay awake, watching the lights and telling myself the story I have every night since she died.
The same story
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Something that came to me while thinking about how I just can't talk to my friends about what I really need to talk to them about (If that made any sense)
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i understand. i do the same thing